Farrell’s Gave Me Control Over My Life
On June 30, 2015, I made a decision that I had no idea would be such a life changing one: I signed up for Farrell’s 10-week Challenge. I was skeptical that I would be successful in this program, but I decided to try it out. For many years, I have struggled with an eating disorder. I had allowed my eating disorder’s behaviors and thoughts to dictate and control my life; it was keeping me from living life to the fullest. In my fight to take back my life, my doctor and therapist helped me start to realize that my life was unhealthy in many aspects, physically, emotionally, mentally, and relationally. I started to realize the unhealthy, destructive behaviors I was engaging in were not leading me to where I wanted to be, and yet I felt it was the only way to have control over my life. I felt trapped. I had been on a rollercoaster ride for years and was exhausted. I had gained weight when I stopped some of my unhealthy behaviors as my body was learning to trust me again. And so, the vicious cycle continued.
It was suggested to me that I should join Farrell’s, as it provides many of the components that I was focusing on to gain control and balance in my life. I started my 10-weeks at FXB EP True on July 23, 2015 and little did I know, the cycle I was stuck in would be quickly interrupted and I would gain back control over my life.
During the second week, I was ready to quit and go back to my old, unhealthy habits. I talked with Javier, the head coach, and shared my story. Together, we set goals and created a plan. I had to push myself out of my comfort zone many times during my 10 weeks. During the fourth week, I started to trust the process more and focus on the other numbers (beyond the number on the scale) to help determine my progress. I decided to give up weighing myself at home every day (sometimes multiple times) to determine my worth, if I should eat or not, or if I should workout more. I left my scale at Farrell’s with Javier. After leaving my scale at the gym, I started to feel freedom from that number. I started only weighing in with Javier at the gym and we used the numbers to help determine my progress and plan more accurately.
The last few years I had been hiding behind fleeces and jackets on a daily basis, even while working out. During my time at Farrell’s, I started to gain self-confidence and started wearing long sleeve shirts to work out in instead. I was finally able to leave my jacket at Farrell’s for good. I got to a point where I felt comfortable to wear a t-shirt to work out in and I started dressing more confidently for work and socially. In fact, just today, December 10th, I was brave enough to wear a tank top to class. It was uncomfortable, but I was strong and did it! I got glimpses of myself in the mirror and allowed myself to see the healthy progress I have made, physically and mentally. I am proud of this accomplishment! I had to overcome many obstacles during my ten weeks, but through those times, I became stronger and gained the courage to keep moving forward. During the 10-weeks, to my amazement, I started to see the progress I was making. I had made many small changes that have added up to success.
I am thankful I stayed at Farrell’s and did not give up. During my time at Farrell’s, I have lost weight, gained muscle mass, decreased body fat mass, decreased my BMI, and decreased my body fat percentage. More importantly than the numbers, though, I started to change emotionally, mentally, and relationally. I started to trust those helping me and I started believing in a plan and process enough to give it time to work. The gym started to become more than just a place for me to focus on the physical components; so much more was offered to me. Javier, my coaches, and other members started to believe in me and, slowly, I started to believe in myself. I began to have a shift in mindset where I started changing my negative thinking about myself to positive thinking. I was learning that it was not a diet or a program that I was doing, but instead, I was making a healthy lifestyle change that I will be able maintain.
I became aware that often times I was self-sabotaging and finding excuses to quit when things got hard. I was afraid if I made progress, I would end up failing like in the past. I did not realize at that point that if I did this in a healthy way, I would not go backwards again. I realized I needed to find reasons to keep moving forward. I do not have to be sick; I can be healthy and have control. I started to feel safe enough, even while still feeling vulnerable, to share my story, my struggles, and my successes with others, which helped me start to enjoy life and, hopefully, inspire others. I started to trust others by allowing them to support me, encourage me, motivate me, hold me accountable, provide me with tough love, to push me, to laugh with me, and to celebrate with me. I have gained friendships from my classmates and am grateful for those relationships!
After being at Farrell’s for just under five months, I have lost 25.2 pounds, lost 31.1 pounds of body fat mass, gained 3.3 pounds of skeletal muscle mass, decreased my BMI by 4.4 points, and decreased my body fat percentage by 16.9%. I have made all of these physical changes by only doing Farrell’s as I have continued to trust and follow their nutrition plan and workout coaching. Farrell’s continues to provide me the motivation and accountability I need to continually keep working on taking back control of my life and not becoming a victim of my circumstances but instead become a victor over my life and embrace the good.
My eating disorder will be a part of me, but I am no longer going to let it define me or dictate my life, I can take control in healthy ways! I have started to find my reason to continue on this journey, as I want to be healthy and happy to enjoy life and inspire others. I have been fortunate to have the opportunity and courage to share my story as friends, family, and coworkers started asking me how I am losing weight, looking fit, and appearing happier. This journey is still a work in progress but I am proud of the progress I have made despite the many obstacles I faced. I still stumble and fall, but the difference now is I am getting back up and back on track. I am thankful I do not have to do this alone.
Javier once told me that I am the coach of my life and I have many assistants to help me out. I have to want to do this for me though and I have to choose to make changes. My coaches, instructors, classmates/friends, and Javier, in conjunction with my therapist, doctor, friends, and family have continued to invest in me, inspire me, and motivate me to believe in myself and continue on this healthy lifestyle journey to enjoying life and not living in the past. I am starting to see and believe in the change and believe in myself! I am making this change for me. I am so excited to be enjoying life!
Disclaimer: The above testimonial was contributed by an actual member. We cannot guarantee everyone will achieve similar results. We do believe that everyone can achieve measurable results, but the specific results will vary from person to person.
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